Needs and Desires

Putting my own needs and desires first for once. It’s ok to take the time and work on becoming the real you because you want to. Not because it’ll make your parents happier, or make you a more appealing partner. I don’t think I’ve ever truly put my feelings at the forefront. There was always a what if about what others might think, or about what I was supposed to do. I’ve only got one life to live. I want to make sure I’m happy when I look into the mirror. Happy as the real me and not some shell waiting on a miracle fix that probably won’t come. I’m the only one who has to suffer the pain of the outcomes of my choices and I’m the only one who gets to experience the joy from my choices. Nobody else feels the hurt I do when I throttle or modify my life for their sake. I feel that hurt. It’s time to stop feeling that hurt. I don’t have to. I can feel happy.